Failure?

Its amazing how I can excel and do so much right. How I go out of my way to go above and beyond what needs to be done. I inspire no confidence I guess, My husband can't even see me doing something. I feel like a child, I feel terrible, I dont want a job that makes me mean, that makes me into the very salesmen I hate.  This is why I got out of the military. NO intergrity, or values, everyone is just out for themselves.